Sunday, March 20, 2011


Moving countries has many advantages and disadvantages.  One of the biggest disadvantages was leaving behind my beautiful family and friends.  Not a day goes by when my mind doesn't think of you or past conversations/adventures.  Distance and time puts a strange wedge into the relationship - the love is still there but the lack of shared experiences leaves a gaping hole, where there was previously a snug embrace.  Now months go by with little to no contact and my heart bleeds for the way things were.  Snatching small glimmers of connectedness which I once daily took for granted.
Then comes the experience of trying to fit in to new surroundings, culture and customs.  Trying to find my niche in my new life and find those daily connections again.  At first, all new relationships are compared to the old, dearly loved, dearly missed ones and in all honesty, the new ones just don't add up.  Then with familiarity, comfort comes and all sides in the new relationship begin to open up.  New friendships form in surprising and wonderful ways.
I find myself so torn now between past and present trying only to be grateful for each beautiful gift as it presents itself.  Friend's truly are treasures and mine, new and old are rich in love, support, fun and comfort.  I am a very lucky women to know the people I know and have know.  I treasure my special friends and look forward to when I will share experiences with you again and all the old familiarity returns and the magic happens.  For now, I will continue to grow the new friendships, forever holding you in my heart.


Melly said...

This is so true...and beautifully said! Funny that I have not checked your blog in so long and here's an entry just today! I have to selfishly say that I am glad we are "embracing" our friendship; that I get to have you close at this point. Even though we get busy, there's still the connectedness that I do not take for granted! xoxoxoxo

Catherine said...

Oh love! I do miss you so! You are always in my heart and thoughts - in fact, I walked past your old house today. I was going to say, "Look Kees, there's Harry and Sam's old house," but I didn't want to make him sad. Or me! You are my very special, very missed friend, with many memories. I am happy that you are making good new friends; we only want you to be happy in your new home. And besides, people in Canada deserve to enjoy you too! PS: Or are you just putting this out so we get you a good birthday present?? Heheh. Don't worry, I owe you two this year cause I never did send one last year - whoopsy. A big big squeezing cuddle to you. One day! xxx