This past week was also the anniversary of the passing of my darling nephew Dylan Paul Ludbey. He left us 4 years ago in body but I still feel his amazing spirit with me each day. The pain is just as raw as it was then and this year for some reason seemed so much stronger. I spent 2 days just feeling it and staying with it where I previously would have run. It hurt like hell but I feel a lot better for it. I am not saying that the pain has gone. I don't believe that will ever happen. Things just need to be felt. Dylan had a spunk, a wisdom that touched me so greatly and all those that knew him. I love you my dear, dear boy and I miss you so very much.
Thank you for letting me ramble on. I felt like I really needed to share. I miss my friends, I miss my family. So this helps. Thank you.